last semester

hello anyone who is reading or just somehow accidentally ended up on this page. i am currently enjoying the idea of this being my last semester of high school. it is starting to get under my skin. i am ready to get out of this town and see what i have been missing while i sat in BFE, Missouri. i will still be in Missouri during college but it will be like 200 miles away and i think i will like the chance  to make some more friends. i don't have many, although, the ones that i have are pretty awesome. and i want to add to the awesomeness... i think it will be interesting to walk into a school property and get asked, "what do you want to study?" i will be like " :o ... you can do that?" i think that college will present new opportunities for me to be less weird and stuff (yeah right :D) 

maybe a change of back round is what i need to get out of this funk that i am in. maybe i am being consumed by the monotony that is my life... odds are it is something much less deep than that but still... it is a concern. 

don't get me wrong when i say this, i enjoy where i live and all of my friends but i kinda want to get a new experience and get the fuck away from the small town horse shit for a little bit. i don't know, my days are kind of going by in a blur, I'm just waiting for the bell to ring most days so that i can just go home, go to sleep and get up to do it again. I'm like a human assembly line that doesn't make anything...

I know that i will miss things about living in a small town while i am at college but i think that the good will outweigh the bad in this one. which will be an interesting thing to see first hand, at least for me... (that's not normally how it works) of course i am talking about meeting new people but then again i am not so smooth when it comes to social events. you see, i don't want to be that guy who awkwardly introduces themselves and gets in on someones conversation without an invitation, so i end up being the guy who awkwardly stands away from the people that he doesn't know and doesn't meet anyone... :D oh well, i do have a friend up there so that should help with the good ole, friend makin' stuff...

also, I'm still trying to get a job... you know... so i can get a life. see, cause that way i could be like "hey guys lets go to the movies!" and then i could afford it and stuff. which would be cool... but right now its like "hey... lets um... what doesn't take money?" it is obvious that i do not have much of a life when i am blogging at 12:13 AM on a Friday instead of hanging with friends or out on a date or something.... >: l ... bah forget it... doesn't really matter that much anyway...

oh well, i guess that is all i have got to say for now...

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