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Alrighty then, today has been pretty good so far. I got to sleep in this morning until about ten O’clock before I went to school. The formal reason that I was not a school was because I had a “dentist appointment” but really I just stayed up too late talking with my dad about how many movies Samuel L. Jackson is in. Seriously, that guy is in everything! I looked it up on the internet and, including TV series’ he has been in 139 motion pictures. That is insane, we looked at some other actors and only one came close, Robert Duvall. So yeah that is pretty crazy, but I stayed up until almost five in the morning talking about that. So my dad didn’t want me to drive super tired so he let me sleep in a little bit. It is cool I haven’t been late all that much to school so It should be good.

                I have made a decision today; I am going to drop my speech class… I don’t want to but I don’t really have a choice in the matter. I didn’t get my last speech done because it was assigned during spring break and I didn’t have a camera to film it with. There was also suppose to be a mid-term due that week that was worht jsut as much as a speech so i fucked this all pretty hard. I also haven’t been getting my scholarships done… my “to do” list has kind of gone to shit and I am afraid that the wind is picking up and getting ready to turn it into a shit storm. This is not going the way that it should… I am not a good planner to start with but I thought that maybe I could kind of bullshit my way through this but I don’t know about it. This is so weird for me to not be doing well in school, it is my own fault but I am just so fucking tired of it. I don’t want to be here or learn any of this. I don’t really care anymore. It is getting to be a little too much. I should have just done a simple senior year and not done anything difficult because I am pretty much miserable right now… maybe I shouldn’t go to Rolla next year, maybe I  should go to OTC for a little bit to figure myself out a little bit. I hate to do that but it might be the right thing to do… I don’t know if I want to be an engineer or not… FUCK……… i know that i want to study music but that doesn't exactly pay the bills and I don't want to be a freaking band teacher... maybe I could be a guitar intructer or something. I guess that I will figure it out but i hate to start out with a lot of debt that doesn't add up to anything useful.